My hair was falling out, so I buzzed it short.
A few days ago I noticed a small bald spot on the top of my head, along the surgery scar. It grew as I traced the itchy scar absentmindedly. Then I noticed I could pull out a few dozen hairs from the top or side of my head without even a mild tug. In the shower it washed out in clumps. It drifted into my dinner.
The radiation oncologists said this would happen. I wasn’t worried about my appearance — I just didn’t want to scare my son — so I began to wear my Bruins cap at home.
Yesterday’s buzz cut to a quarter-inch dulls the contrast of dark hair and pale scalp. I don’t look quite so mangy, but my hair is still falling out and my scalp is still itchy. I have some hydrocortisone cream to treat the itch, but haven’t bothered to use it much.
We also trimmed my unkempt and greying beard. But first we snapped these pix:
News of the effort inspired our friend Garen Tolkin (a hairstylist, coincidentally) to share this comparison to Beowulf, which she recently read:
Please tell Bogart I bid farewell to the Gnarly Beard and await its return from its journeys to the Fifth Circle. May it return Burly. I will bow in joy and gratitude at its battle-worn magnificence! I can already see it wreathed and woven with the victor’s flowers!
He is more than Bog. He is BOG THE CONQUEROR, BOGWULF. His Thanes, Chemo and Radio his trusty sword and shield.
It’s fun to be compared generously to a hero. Losing some of my (once merely normal) agility to a brain injury makes the comparison seem absurd. But I am often the subject of magical treatments, which is a hero trope. I fit better in a comic book superhero role, perhaps, considering the radiation. Heroic acts pending.
My wife and I joked that my superhero costume should include the bizarre plastic mesh mask I wear during radiation treatments. I suggested a superhero name of “Captain Gray”, a reference to the standard unit of measurement of absorbed radiation, the gray. You could also say I’m “capped in gray”. And gray is neutral and bland, which describes my dress and manner fairly well.